Do you ever get the feeling at the start of a week that its going to be one of those weeks where everything seems to go wrong? Well if you know what I’m talking about then this is already one of those weeks (and its only Tuesday).
Allow me to explain.
Tee is at my house after staying over for the weekend. We are having a good laugh and everything is going great but then we both remember that we are going to a meal that night and as you know I have anxiety, (and yes its made its self at home in my brain and won’t seem to leave) so as soon as we think about the meal my panic starts. I can’t relax any, my make-up goes wrong, I can’t find anything to wear e.t.c. Long story short I end up having a panic attack and don’t end up going but making Tee go because it was his family and no way was I going to let my stupid mind stop him from going.
Anyway…ever since yesterday I have felt the roller-coaster ride that is my mood swings doing loops, going upside down and just basically going off the rails and into the cement at the bottom.
I have to get up early because I have work and am doing that until around 7 when I start this, making it a 12 hour day and it has been none stop! I cannot relax, my mind is constantly over thinking everything and making my life so much more difficult than it should be.
So! I have decided to get my head out of the sand, rant on here to get all these stupid thoughts out of my head and just get on with it!
I need to prove to myself that just because things are going wrong doesn’t mean I have to sit here and let them! It’s my life and I can do want I damn well need to (providing it’s legal of course, don’t worry I am not going to kill anyone…If I was it would have been done a long time ago 😛 )
Basically it is time to go kick anxiety’s ass and show it who is the boss in my brain!
If you have read this then thank-you for sticking with my pointless rambling on 🙂
And as always,
Keep Smiling 🙂